In 15 minutes, i leave for the doctors.
A place where people only get bad news, and get told they are going to die.
I'm off to visit Mort himself.
Hopeful outcome? I get signed off work for a week, or a month, or 673 years.
I was at work today.
I've just finished waxing the car, with the most expensive wax that is available in retail outlets today, and it was worth it.
Nothing looks better than a shiny black car, especially one that is 12 years old - which looks like new.
I'm well impressed.
The locals dont talk to me here, even though its a small place. They all remember who my father was, and they think i'm the same - so they judge a book, and leave me alone.
I like it this way though, living here is like living in a fishbowl, everybody knows your buisness.
I've had a few of the newcomers pass comment on how good the car looks as i was grinding the polishing cloth into it, a simple Thank you, they recieve in reply. I dont want to make conversation. There may come a time where this whole street turns into zombies and i have to kill them, it's easier if i dont go forming friendships.
Sometimes they ask 'Hey brendan, how are you..?"
My response is always the same: "Nothing a bullet wouldn't fix."
The smile, but in a 'Fuck me, he's in pain that cunt' sort of way. Its hard to keep a straight face while saying that, but i laugh on the inside.
Tonight, i go and visit my 'engaged with family' friends.. I like them, so it should be some relief from being stuck in the house thumping my thoughts into this useless site.
My mood today is one of hope, Hope that happiness is not 933 years away, but just round the corner. I reckon something big is on the horizon, and it's not a mushroom cloud.
Today people, today is day one. Day one Version 6.8.
Fromt his day forth, my arrogance, ignorance, hatered and misery will be cranked up to full capacity.
Ok, you were expecting something a little more.... Enthusiastic, well here goes:
From this day forth, i will not get myself down, i will not worry, i will be positive and prductive about lifes offerings... Ah christ, i cant even type happy. lol Fuck that.
If, you ever hear on teh news that the Earth is scheduled for imminant emplosion, you'll know its a machine i created, and its all my fault.
Fuck you all, every mother-fucking last one of you; and everyone who looks like you - just to make sure i dont miss anyone.
littlemissnic
Glad you finally got an appointment there is something seriously wrong when you only say cunt once in a post!
And re:
There may come a time where this whole street turns into zombies and i have to kill them, it's easier if i dont go forming friendships.
have you been watching Shaun of the dead recently too?